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[Sep. 8th, 2009|12:35 am] |
Ohay. I'll be fine. But it is the strangest, most sobering thing to have him in my life so completely for a little bit of time and then suddenly out like he was never here.
I need clean sheets and a bedroom makeover for realz.
GAWD. For the first time I was enjoying a relationship. And now back to boyhood. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2009|12:04 pm] |
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I woke up this morning with an acute feeling of emptiness. There was no moment between waking and sleeping that I thought he might be here or that he might have called. He is gone. How can that be? It doesn't make sense. And I am powerless to do anything but move on, though I expect him to call and realize the mistake he made. I think he's too proud of a man to do that. I love him for that, but can't help hating him for it, too. |
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[Sep. 5th, 2009|08:51 pm] |
I have never been as genuine with him as I was when he was breaking up with me. I wish I could be that candid all the time. It scares me, is all, that kind of intimacy. I was only a few days from really allowing this to be what it can be, not what it had been. I'm a late bloomer, surprise. I take a little while to open up.
Dear, you spoke a moment too soon. For your sake, I hope I'm not right about all this. |
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